Dear Darling Ones, This week I re-read Lucy Grealy’s Autobiography of a Face and Ann Patchett’s Truth & Beauty. I read both of these books back in 2004 when I identified hard with Grealy’s story…
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Things I Said to My Cat Yesterday
Hey Darling Ones, This is a list of things I said out loud to Wendell, my cat, yesterday. Good morning. She woke from a dream. Her head was on fire. Why was he so nervous?…
Sometimes My Brain is a Real Jerk
Dear Darling Ones, I am frustrated. I’m nearly 50* and not only do I still get crushes on men, I still get all sad and stuff when those crushes start seeing women who are not…
The COVID Diaries: If I Had a Pony, I’d Ride it on My Boat
Hi Darling Ones, We like to romanticize the idea of a lone wolf living for nobody but themselves, somebody who gives no fucks and lives by their own rules. We super love this if it’s…
The COVID Diaries: Most Things are Frivolous & Life Has No Meaning
Hello Darling Ones, My nihilism has reached such epic proportions that I didn’t even watch the Golden Globes last night. While that might not seem like much to you, it’s kind of a big deal…
The COVID Diaries: She’ll Be Fine in Awhile
Hi Darling Ones, If I were a different kind of person I’d post that picture of Phyllis (above) with that quote by Anaïs Nin in a scripty font and then talk about whatever I made…
The COVID Diaries: Dying on the Vine
Hey Darling Ones, Instead of being cranky & bored, my brain decided as soon as I opened my eyes this morning that we would be inconsolably sad & lonely. There’s nothing like weeping about feeling…
The COVID Diaries: Loneliness of the Monster
Dear Darling Ones, For many years I would email or message my pal Vodo (aka Beautiful Robert, aka Sweet Rob, aka my former writing teacher, for you longtime readers who cannot keep up with nicknames)…
The COVID Diaries: Everything is Killing Me
Hello Darling Ones, There are days where the unending monotony of this pandemic drives me to despair. There are days where I think over and over, I can’t do this anymore. I can’t do this….
The COVID Diaries: I am Unpleasant & Irrational
Hi Darling Ones, I woke up in a pit of loneliness and despair on Friday and I have yet to climb out of it. I’m trying. This weekend I’ve done all the things one should…