i’m wearing a melancholy coat today. i miss the sunshine today. i feel sort of sad about something, though i’m not sure what it is. perhaps it’s just the unbearable weight of my utter loneliness that’s bringing me down. i can’t quite put my finger on it, but i miss the days when i could bring joy into people’s lives. i’d like it if i could find just one person who would be happy to see me. hell, i’d be happy if i could find just one person who wanted to see me.

i’m going to lunch with graphicsboy. maybe that will cheer me up.