wow. i think i just had a major anxiety attack. i don’t think i’ve ever had one before. it was either that or a heartattack, and i know you don’t recover from those that quickly.
my chest is still a bit fluttery, but i’m trying to take deep breaths to calm myself down. the only problem is that i keep forgetting where i am. i have a friend who told me when i start to freak out that i need to take ten slow and deep breaths. usually it helps, but i always forget to count and if i only do four breaths, then i get al fluttery-chested again and suddenly it feels like my shirt doesn’t fit and my eyes start to water and i can’t breath because there’s just so much so much so much a house to buy and a big work thing to get through and to pack and to call the movers and to turn off the electricity and what about all the money i need to save the money but i want to go see the hold steady and i have to have this very important thing written by the end of the day and what about finding my pay stubs and do i make enough money and i just want to read that book but i need to pack because there is a lot of packing to get done oh and i need to get that thing done before the end of the day and what if i die alone and god will everyone just quit bugging me ever? ever?
and then i can’t breathe again.
if i don’t lose my motherfucking mind by september 12th, i should be nominated for sainthood.
Somebody needs to get into making “to do lists”.
It helps to forget about it when you have it written down.
Yep, that does sound like a panic/anxiety attack. A quick change of scene, like going outside for five minutes or so, can help if they’re just isolated fits like you described.
The Hold Steady own my stereo right now. If only their show wouldn’t be 21+
(hugs)
… and yes, that WAS an anxiety attack.
Also – I’m with you on the moving anxiety. House owning sucks and is still one of the best things you can do with your cash. How it can embrace polar opposites, I have no idea.