junkie girl

i am a pathetic today-show junkie, i thought you all should know.

also, sister #3 is pregnant. that’s the big secret i’ve been digesting all weekend. she told me, via e-mail, on friday. can we say mixed emotions?

first and foremost i am giddy with joy for sister #3 and tony. i know how very badly they want to have kids. it’s been so long since we’ve had a brand-new baby in the family. you figure max will be 3 in october. . . he’s practically old now.

so yes, i will get to be an aunt again. wahoo!

but then i get all selfish and worried when i think about it. by the time this kid is born i’ll be nearly 30 years old. 30, single and childless. it terrifies me. i don’t want to be an old maid.

i think about sister #3 having a kid and i think about how sister #2 already has two and i feel like i am just way behind them, like it’s some sort of silly race. i feel the litlest bit usurped. i am supposed to be the oldest sister, sister #1, i am supposed to do all this stuff first.

but really i am just being silly about everything, i am still young, aren’t i? there is plenty of time to meet some man, con him into loving me and then having babies, right? right?

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6 Comments

  1. heather 28.May.01 at 10:54 am

    i WISH i had siblings to take the grandchild pressure off of me! i keep telling mom that walter (my cat) is the only grandchild she’s getting. dad at least has his step-grandkids to sate any inclinations he may have to spoil short people.

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  2. jodi 28.May.01 at 11:11 am

    heh, i guess i never thought of it like that. you want a sister? i got a few to spare.

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  3. mickmars 28.May.01 at 12:00 pm

    maybe you could order up one of them mail order russian husbands. do they got those?

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  4. jodi 28.May.01 at 10:02 pm

    i don’t know. i might look into that. or i will just go to a sperm bank and get fertilized or something.

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  5. baha 13.Nov.03 at 3:59 pm

    : )

    MY NICKNAME IS PACO AND ALSO MY CAT S NAME S PACO TOO..G DAY…
    🙂

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  6. Dana 13.Nov.03 at 4:37 pm

    Damn, I love the web.

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