Hello Darling Ones, How is your summer winding down? Mine has been filled with the west coast fam, who have slowly trickled in over the past week and start to trickle out on Sunday. It’s been a delight to have them here. One of the best side effects of the stroke and benefits of Lexapro is really, really appreciating my family. The Lexapro has eased all the anxiety-based annoyance, and my new disabled state makes me so happy to have…
Hi Darling Ones, Wanna know why I cried at my sleep study Tuesday? Here goes. “How tall are you?” Zack the sleep study tech asked as he reached up the leg of my pajama pants to grab the wires I had shoved down the top of my pants. “Six five,” I said. “That’s tall,” he said. I nodded. Why could I say? I’ve had this conversation roughly 398,195 times in my life with everyone from strangers at the grocery store…
Oh, Darling Ones, The August Malaise has got me in its clutches. Bad. I thought with all the neurological news, I might escape. Maybe, perhaps learning of the baby aneurysm in my brain would put my anxiety in overdrive and I’d be kept occupied by my fantasies of my imminent death. Nope. The Lexapro is doing its job and I’m being uncharacteristically rational about it. Even Tuesday’s impending sleep study isn’t getting my anxiety too hopped up. I’m curious why…
Hola Darling Ones, Today was my highly-anticipated, long-awaited appointment with the neurologist. Her name was Dr. S and I really liked her. She was kind, compassionate and straightforward, and super smart. It was the caring and compassionate that really won me over because due to my unruly body I’ve had more than my fair share of rude healthcare professionals. Today, was in a word, overwhelming. I have a ton of follow up to do, and I’m out of practice. It’s…
Hi Darling Ones, Happy Kamala Harris picked Tim Walz for VP Day for all those who celebrate. My body is having a really hard time accepting this feeling of optimism. My inherent cynicism is rejecting it like a bad organ transplant. I’m not a big fan of identifying with groups. I wasn’t much for school spirit and I have zero percent patriotism in my body. However, the two things I belong to that I really dig and have shaped my…
Hi Darling Ones, Like a good GenXer Sister #2’s laptop is filled with personality-defining stickers. The one I’m most envious of is the duck-duck-grey duck one. Like a total ding dong who lacks any real, concrete spirituality I get a lot of life guidance from those stickers. One of her stickers is a the James Baldwin quote “I can’t believe what you say because I see what you do.” It’s a bit from his 1966 essay “A Report from Occupied…
