The COVID Diaries: Again

So Darling Ones,

Here in Minnesota where one cop is on trial for murdering George Floyd, yesterday a different cop murdered Daunte Wright, a 20-year-old Black man in Brooklyn Center (a suburb northeast of Minneapolis). They pulled him over for expired tabs and having an air freshener hanging from his rearview mirror. In the United States of America this is an executable offense. If you are Black.

I was pulled over for the exact same thing once, in the 90s. It scared the crap out of me and I thought for sure I was going back to jail (I had spent a night in jail a few months prior for writing bad checks because I was a 21-year-old ding dong). Not for one single second did it cross my mind that I could be killed. I wouldn’t learn about white privilege until my 40s, but I can see in retrospect that it has protected me my entire life.

Every time the picture of Daunte Wright and his baby flashes across my social media I feel like vomiting. I’m a helpless, anxious ball of rage and sadness, which does nothing for nobody, I know, but I don’t know what else to do. I will throw money to the people helping, but even that feels ineffectual.

This problem is so huge and I curse that I’m not smart enough to solve it or even begin to know where to solve it or even how to fucking help.

I feel like I’ve written this post before, because I did back in June when the nation watched a Minneapolis cop kill George Floyd. It’s tough living in that headline from The Onion: ‘No Way To Prevent This,’ Says Only Nation Where This Regularly Happens.

They’re putting a large chunk of the Twin Cities metro area under a 7 p.m. curfew tonight and the National Guard has already rolled into the area. I guess when the cops kill someone you get locked in your house. Seems fair. Living under a white supremacist police state is fun, especially during a pandemic. For the record, where I live does not have a curfew. But what happened in Brooklyn Center could very easily happen here. Or where you live. Or anywhere in the White Supremacist States of America.

Fuck the police. Fuck guns. Fuck the 2nd amendment which should be repealed right around the same time we abolish the police. Fuck this White Supremacist nation. Fuck the government of Minnesota. Fuck the Brooklyn Center police in particular for flying the trashy, racist “Blue Lives Matter” flag in front of their headquarters. Fuck anyone who disagrees with those statements.

Fuck it all. Let’s burn it to the ground and start over.

Jodi

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