sometimes life becomes a little too adult for me. the work stress, the responsibilities, the need to be nonanti-social– sometimes, like today, it’s just entirely more than i can deal with. maybe it’s because i spent most of the weekend working. maybe it’s because lately my time has been everyone’s but mine. maybe it’s because i haven’t written anything in weeks. well, anything besides marketing spooj for work.

so in times like this, when life is just more than i want to deal with, i regress. tonight i decided it would be a good idea to devolve back into a 15-year-old girl. i had turkey dogs for dinner. i ate ice cream while sitting on the fabulous blue couch in a t-shirt and underpants while watching the entire disc on of season one of Dawson’s Creek. i sat on the couch while giving myself a peiduce and longed to be joey potter, lusted after pacey, and generally didn’t think about the mess in my apartment, the stories i could be writing, or the work that needs to be done. instead i watched Dawson’s Creek and moped about all the boys i’ve liked in my life where i got to be the friendgirl. i longed for joey potter’s perky breasts, to have them as my own. if i had thought about it before right now, i’d have called FFJ and talked about cute boys or something utterly non-adultlike. that would have made the night perfect.

but since i didn’t think about that until right now, the night was only pretty good. tomorrow, i’ll go back to being superadultresponsiblegirl. but for tonight, tonight i’m just gonna be kinda doofy, kinda unsure teenjodi.