i am in love.
generally and traditionally, i’ve not been a big fan of babies. mostly they look like wrinkly alien old men things that cry and poop. just really not my thing. even with jaycie, max, and cade, i wasn’t really big fans of their babyhood. i’m not a fan of any baby’s babyhood. mostly i think babies are no fun at all. once they’re mobile they get to be some fun. then around a year a little more fun. about the age of two, when they become insolent little punks– that’s when i fall in love. i love kids, i don’t like babies
that is until now.
nolan has stolen my heart, and i’ve been around a lot of babies. a lot of them. i have a big, huge family, and they’ve all reproduced quite prodigiously. i’ve done my fair share of fake itchy kitchy cooing. i don’t know if it was the birth of jodi hanson’s jack or sister #2’s jaycie that prompted the mother to say, “oh shut up jodi, i know you think he/she is just a crying alien monkey baby.”
really, i disliked babies that much.
but there’s something about nolan that’s turned me into this sighing fool. i could sit and hold him for hours. and i have, thus far in his 2-day life. i look into that little, bitty face and my eyes well up. i rub my nose against his soft, soft cheeks and i can actually feel my uterus cramp in jealousy. i want one. i want him or one just like him.
this is a wholly new experience for me. wanting a baby. a baby. i’ve always wanted kids, toddlers. if i had my choice i’d just get a 2 year old, and that’d be just ducky. but for the first time in my entire life, i want a baby. a shitty, crying, helpless little baby. i want one really, really bad.
Cute baby. I stumbled across your site yesterday and just wanted to say I love your writing. I was captivated reading it for a while yesterday. Good luck with the 12 short stories.
What an adorable baby. I always disliked babies and children too, until I had my own. (daughter) So it’s interesting that you were able to fall in love with little Nolan, never having liked babies before. He must be one special little man!
Who says we love all our children equally?
Nolan is one lucky little man to have you in his life.
I know how you feel. I dislike babies too. Generally, I often envisage swinging babies against the wall each time they interrupt my reading on the train with their constant crying. But when I saw my girlfriend’s niece, my heart simply melted. Now I just beg my girlfriend for a baby girl too. But I guess its a little more complicated when you’re a lesbian.
i was the same way, but i now love babies more than toddlers because i don’t have to pretend to understand what they’re trying to say. why don’t kids enunciate anymore?
nolan’s such a cutie, so adorable.
but we haven’t heard how cade likes nolan, or if he likes nolan!
he is amazing. betcha you can’t even think about making fun of his name now.
congrats to sister #3 and the rest of your family…