it’s going to be one of those days, probably one of those weeks. we’ll see. my alleged NBFB punked out on going to robert’s reading tonight. i am trying not to be super pouty, and just suck it up and go it alone. but it really makes me sad when i have to do stuff like this by myself because i am such a no-friend loser. i mean i don’t mind doing things by myself, but it’s just when you do everything by yourself that you start to wonder if people like you, you know?

plus work has decided to be hell.

and i haven’t slept since saturday. i can’t wait until i’m off these stupid meds. i tell myself everything will be better as soon as i get a good night’s sleep.