i made it through the day. and i’m 31. and i’m a little bit sad and lonely. but i’ll be ok. i’m always ok. it’s just a little bit hard to realize that today, on my most special of days, i was totally and utterly forgotten. i thought i was unforgettable.

thankfully i have a heap of friends and family who made me feel loved and important. i heard more than once today, “i didn’t realize birthdays could be so much fun.”

my friend keith told me to take all that love home tonight and when i returned alone, to my apartment to let it fill me up. mostly it worked, but not totally. perhaps i just want too much.

tomorrow i’ll show you my flowers.