one of the things maya angelou said thursday night has been ringing over and over in my head. she said, “whining alerts a bully that there’s a victim in the area.”

i loved it.

i keep saying it to myself over and over again. i don’t ever want to be seen as a victim. not ever. and just a few minutes ago i was so suddenly and swiftly washed away in all these bad feelings about myself. i was mad for having written that. and letting my guard down and stuff. and i wanted to whine about being unlovable and blah, blah, blah. but i’m not gonna.

instead, i’m gonna go do something that makes me feel good about myself– like vaccuum or something.

sister #4 arrives home tomorrow– i can’t wait. i really miss my digicam.