there are some things i just don’t understand. there are some things i just won’t ever understand.
when i was in college ben jones told me once that i had a boundless capacity for love. he said it was amazing and some other stuff i was too drunk to remember.
but he was so very, very right. i do have a boundless capacity for love. i think it’s one of my better facets. i am an affectionate person, perhaps too much so. i like to be honest, especially when it’s about how i feel about someone or how they make me feel.
so what i don’t understand is why people aren’t so accepting of such affection. is it me? am i so abhorrent that people don’t want to be loved by me? could that be the case?
i can understand how people might not want to or be able to return such affection. but why wouldn’t you want it? why would someone turn away something so pure and unselfish? hell i crave affection like there’s not tomorrow and perhaps that’s why this whole thing just boggles my mind.
sadly, tonight there is much crying in baseball.