There is an odd sense of melancholy that I just can?t seem to shake today. I feel very much alone and I cannot seem to figure out why. It stinks, being lonely and sad at work. Faking it is absolutely no fun, yet crying and pouting at work just doesn?t seem appropriate.

I made a vow this weekend to be a more positive person. It?s kind of hard to keep this vow when all I want to do is cry. Maybe things will get better as the day progresses. Maybe I should just pop Ryan Adams into the CD player and daydream about how he wants to be my boyfriend. Yeah, I think that?s what I?ll do because really, already that?s making me smile.