the rack

surprising to some or perhaps nobody at all, i’ve joined hoopty’s rack browser. i sent in my picture late last week then pondered why i did it and what i would say about it.

i’ve spent a lot of my life not feeling too comfortable in my own skin. i’ve always felt too fat or too tall or too something. most of the time i feel like a cartoon version of a normal girl. my eyes are big, my hands are big, my laugh is loud, my moods swing. there really isn’t anything subtle about me, and really that’s not a bad thing.

as i inch ever closer to thirty, i’m starting to get comfortable with who i am. more than that, i think i am comfortable with who i am not. i am not petite, or quiet or subtle. i’ll never be classy, elegant or a supermodel. finally i am ok with that. i’m happy being a bawdy, loud, broad.

my body and i are still having a tumultuous relationship, someday i hope to make peace with it. no matter my feelings towards my body, i’ve almost always been a big fan of my breasts. they are pretty, like my eyes. they are big and unsubtle, like me.

they are mine and i have chosen to show them off. they are mine and i am proud of them. now, i am hoping i can transfer the love and pride i have for my breasts to the rest of my body.

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2 Comments

  1. Jamie 21.Mar.02 at 5:47 pm

    Bravo! I salute you! I’ve been in the same place nearly all my life. Like you, I’m a loud, bawdy broad, who’s always “too this” or “too that” and also like you, I’m finally coming to terms with the fact that I don’t have to aspire to an image I’ll never achieve to be considered attractive. Finally, I’m beginning to like myself just the way I am. I’m sure it’ll be a long struggle, but the battle itself is making me stronger and more confident.

    It’s a good feeling. 🙂

  2. hoopty 21.Mar.02 at 7:02 pm

    Your boobies aren’t the only thing wonderful about you.