well we had the potential client meeting. i’m not sure how it went. the jury is still out. it was pretty great though, i mean even if we don’t get the client. it was our first pitch and that learning experience is something we can’t pay for. it’s really just trial by fire.

the best part of the day was seeing partner in action. if you knew her you’d have been amazed. she’s generally the shyest, quietest person on earth. why we’re such good friends is beyond me, but we work well together. really well. and today she was just dynamite. it’s like she totally blossomed into who she was right in front of me. i’ve never seen her so confident and together. i wanted to weep.

and you will be so proud, i didn’t say motherfucker at all. i didn’t even swear once and i kept all my biting opinions to myself. i realize that while i can do that with my coworkers, probably not such a good idea for such blatant opinionosity with a client you’re meeting for the first time.

i hate saying this, but starting a business is hard. it feels weird, because i don’t feel like i’m old enough to do somethign that seems so HUGE, so responsible. it’s terrifying and fun all at the same time. sometiems when i sit and talk about it with partner, i get so excited i can hardly breathe.

but it’s a lot of damn work. i’m not business minded and that’s really stretching my comfortable level. which is good. i should do more things that scare the shit out of me. like the meeting today.

i’m lucky though. i got a great network of people. my friend Smel is an unbeliveable help and ally. she’s helping us get things started on the right foot and asking us all the questions we hadn’t even thought about at all. it’s so fucking fabulous to have such supportive people in your life.

plus to have a partner with such talent.

sometimes i worry that it’s gonna totally tank and i’ll feel like a fool. but mostly, my guts tell me, that it’s going to be such a fabulous sucess that i’m not even gonna know what to do with myself.

2005 is gonna be a crazy year.