holy shit am i being a big baby tonight. i’m restless and i’m bored and i’m not willing to do anything to make me unrestless and unbored. i don’t feel like writing, i don’t feel like reading, i don’t feel like watching “Beautiful Girls” (which is in the VCR right this minute), i don’t feel like masturbating, i’m not happy, i’m not sad, i just am.

i have plenty i could write about if i were so inclined– the big anniversary fight between the sisters yesterday, yesterday’s bbq at sister #3’s house, the political debates, how much bailey and hayden look like jodi hanson, i could go on and on.

i have plenty of housework and laundry to do, if i weren’t so lazy.

i just want to be entertained. that’s what i want! i want someone to make me laugh and flirt with me. i’m sick of myself.