while i was sitting at my desk this afternoon, the mean reds suddenly overtook me. i’d been battling them for about a week, but i think with the holidays upon us, i couldn’t keep them at bay any longer.
i just suddenly felt so meaningless. it was gross. really gross. i had freaked myself out over my apparent failure to the point where i was nearly crying. i mean i’m 31 and have nothign to show for anything. i don’t have any friends, no house, no lover, no children, and no great successes. i don’t do anything. i work, come home, write, sleep (sometimes) and get up again. second verse same as the first. it terrified me. this is my life and i don’t want it.
it was terrible.
but i think i’ve recovered.
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hey, Im 26 and I am right there too… well, kinda.
Get some good videogames… they help 🙂
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