March 20, 1987
I’m so confused. but it’s a good kind of confusing! I feel like singing, dancing, writing a book, playing my sax, writing poems! I think I’m in love. But this time it’s so different. Because the guy I’m in love with isn’t tha goergous! He’s not even cute. he’s just ok! Well, that doesn’t! [i forgot to finish the sentence. i didn’t forget to punctuate it! notice the excessive !! i wonder what i was going to say] What makes me like him so much is his personality. He is so nice! His name is Brian. Today is his birthday. I don’t even know why I like him. [err, i thought it was his personality] I’ve known him since the begining of the year! But all of a sudden he really appeals to me! Why? I have no idea, he just does. Yesterday afternoon was probably the worst day of my entire life! [this one makes me laugh, the afternoon was the worst day] Just thinking about it makes me feel down. You see? I had this crush on Shawn Anderson (notice past tense). And i dared Dawn to tell him I liked him. Well she never got around to that. But Roosevelt is having this dance and she asked Shawn to go to the dance with me! And I’m not even going to go! She wonders why I’m mad! She must be dumb. Well me and Dawn aren’t best friends anymore! Me and Jenni have been for about a week! I like Jenni! Brian’s on my mind again. Everything reminds me of him. He’s such a sweethart! Shawn’s really cute! But I don’t even know him. How Ironic, the song playing now is called “We Connect It starts out out by saying, “D-D-Dance with me!” Get it? Well I’m goona go wash by contacts.

hmm, apparently my attraction to good personality and a sense of humor went the way of the dodo after cam anderson. please note, that i make a startling revelation in this entry. it’s easier to like people that you actually know. it was a revolutionary concept for me at the time.