there are helium balloons tied to my eyelashes tonight. they won’t stay closed unless i squeeze them closed, real tight. not conducive to sleep at all. i was in bed by 11 and even turned off the lights for a nice orgasm by 11:30, but the sleep it was not coming. at one point i thought i was asleep. but then i noticed the moonlight sifting through the opening in the curtains, i thought, “heh, cool i sleep with my eyes kind of open.” but then i realized i wasn’t asleep at all. i was just awake and kidding myself.

then i thought maybe i couldn’t sleep because i had all these ideas for class pinging about in my head. so i got up and grabbed the notebook and gel pens michelle and al got me for my birthday (btw, they are most brilliantly annoying and wonderfully flowing glittery gel pens ever). i scribbled for a few pages, getting the ideas out and hoping if i put them there they would let me rest.

but, the sleep was still not satisfied. so here i sit, checking e-mail and listening to the jayhawks’ “tailspin” and wondering how tired i’ll be tomorrow. good thing it’s a short week.