today was my three year anniversary at the software company. ironically, monster chose today to deliver an ad for a dream job to my inbox. it’s in madison wisconsin.

last night someone told me i should be more guarded and not give my heart away so easily. i was told to take my heart back, even if it’s symbolically.

i am more than what you read here. i contain multitudes.

around 11 a.m. i stopped thinking complete thoughts and communicating in full sentences. too much going on, too much to do, too much thinking. i’m running on fumes. i was nominated most likely to snap, that made me laugh and laugh. i’m so overwhelmed even the bossman noticed. subtlety has never been my strong suit.

i am going to go lay in bed now and not think about my aching heart and my taxed brain or my too much work or the outlaw or if i will find all the words i need tomorrow. i will not think about the hold message commercial i forgot to write today or six meetings i have tomorrow or any of that.

i am going to lay in bed and remember the dream i had the night before last when i had magic and it sparkled from my fingertips and it was raining inside the cathedral and our laughter bounced off the stone walls back into our ears and everyone was amazed at how i made bowling shoes appear by simply tapping my foot.