you know what? i am starting to feel like i just graduated college and i am in that unemployed downtime. well, i feel just like i did then. except i am living alone and i don’t have my parents’ direct-tv and completely stocked fridge. i lay around the joint, in my pajamas. i wake at 10 (or noon or later). i nap aimlessly, then i lay around some more. doesn’t that sound like the post-college, pre-employment routine? i am going to work today. don’t tell my mom or the doctor. but i am really starting to feel like a worthless human, just taking up space. but. . . i did read infinite jest again last night. my goal is to finish it by the new year. last night donald gately talked about driving pat montessian’s ford aventura. he also talked about pat and her stroke. but then i got tired and had to go to sleep.