i might have been ok if she hadn’t hugged me before she left. i knew it was coming. deep-down i’ve known it was coming since black friday in november. but knowing, doesn’t make it any easier.
i know that what she’s doing is for the best. i know she’ll be a lot happier and healthier away from softwareland. i know she needs the time to work on her poetry and see if she can’t get that thesis published.
but i still cried like a little girl when she hugged me goodbye. i’m crying now just writing these words.
it’s so weird, because i keep talking about her in the past tense. like sandy’s died or something. she’s not dead. but the office sure feels dead without her. she made work so much fun.
she was smart, talented, beautiful, and someone who was a great mentor to me. god, i miss her already. long gone are the days when i could say a word and she’d instantly understand what i meant. nobody’s gonna call me jodichromeysupergenius anymore.
this just blows. it blows because it didn’t have to happen. she was forced out, to put it ever-so-job-saving-mildly.
boo!
I’m sorry. I’ve lost more friends and mentors to layoffs than I’d like to remember. I know what you’re going through, and the best thing I can suggest is to embrace your grief. It’s real, and won’t go away by wishing it. Go through your mourning process, take some time off if you need to. I took a couple days off when my favorite project manager got axed, and felt much better than the time before when I lost my manager. I wish there was an easy way to go through it, but there isn’t. Good luck!