i must have that nervous breakdown look on my face. three people have come up to me today and say that i “look tired.” this is odd because i got like 8 hours of sleep in a row last night. of course, we all know that “look tired” is just code for “look like utter shit.” so yeah, now you know what i look like today.
there is a bit of the nervous breakdown air about me, i can’t deny that. i’ve been in full-on freakout mode since monday. the roof is on fire here in softwareland and it seems everyone is perfectly content with watching the motherfucker burn, you know?
it doesn’t help that i’ve taken on a completely new role that i’ve never done before and it’s a lot of work directing people on what to do and what needs to be done. i’m waiting for them to call me out as the fraud that i am. it seems nobody here realizes that i’m making this all up as i go along and they all seem perfectly content to just follow where i lead– regardless if they should or not.
i’m a little scared.
There are few people in the world who know exactly what they’re doing, and how to do it. They’re the type that give people like us jobs because they know that, when faced with the unknown, you’ll do the right thing, and if it blows up, you’ll learn not to do it again.
They don’t want you to be perfect; They want you to be JodiChromeySuperGenius.
Oooh, I HATE when people say that…you’re right, it’s essentially saying, you like shite. Ugh. Thanks, especially in the morning. Great way to start your day! I never say that unless someone says they’re tired then I’ll agree.