sometimes when i’m writing i get so invovled in the main character that i am moved to tears. i’m actually sitting here blowing my nose and wiping away tears about a character i invented in a situation i can relate to, but have never myself been in.

my FFJ asked if it was because my fiction so closely mirrors my own life. and maybe that’s why. maybe i relate too closely to my characters. i like to think it’s because the story is so moving, but i suppose being so moved by your own story is sort of like laughing at your own jokes.

this one hurts me to write. it’s good, but it hurts. i can relate too much, and i envy this girl, this character that’s me but not really so much at all.

another draft down. i’m so proud of me.