awhile ago, i tried to caputure the tempestuousness of teenage girls’ friendships, i didn’t quite do it justice.
July 13, 1987
Today was the worst day of my life. i think I’ve just lost my best friend. me and Jenni had a fight yesterday. Cuz she never comes over anymore, so yesterday she called Kurt and told him she was going to Valleyfair! So now she ain’t goin to the family picnic with me. So now I bet she goes and brings Anne to Valleyfair and now Chuck is gonna fall madly in love with Anne cuz it happened with Dan. I bet that’s what’s gonna happen. Now, I bet everyone in the youth group will tell her how much they hate me! Wow, this sounds just like my dream. But I feel really bad cuz I’ve just lost my best friend to Anne. I feel really bad cuz she hasn’t told me nothing. Cuz Anne said Dale has been a real jerk and Jenni was real upset. But Jenni didn’t tell me anothin’ and I thought everything was goin good cuz Jen gave me this poem:
Forever Friends
Well my friend, exactly where do I start?
These words I saw come from the bottom of my heart
You’ll be my friend through thick and thin
We’ve stood the test of time,
though perfect it hasn’t been
Our friendship is real we’ve proved it through time
Your thoughts and ideas I treasure as if they were mine
Never hid anything from me — never keep it inside
Don’t hesitate to come to me, my arms are open wide
Right now, in your paint, you’re hurting deep within
I hope you know I love you, please let me in.
Joanne Heineman

God, Now I’m crying like a dumb fool! When she game that poem she said it reminded her of us and after I read it I felt like crying (this time I am). Maybe if I would have kept my mouth shut she’d still want to be my best friend. I just over re-acted. It’s just that she got jealous when I hung around Jodi Hanson and we were together (me and Jen). Now here she’s been spending everyday with Anne. Then she stops for half hour and all she talks about is what her and Anne did. She probably thought I was mad cuz last time she came over she was talking about Anne and I just sat there and didn’t say nothin’. And guess what? today would have been our 5th month of being best friends. But then Anne said that Jenni wanted her necklace back and didn’t want to be best frenz no more. How come when me and Jen fight it’s always me who cries? She musn’t value our friendship very much. Then why am I so upset?