i find myself compelled to buy domains for each facet of my personality. not that i’d use them, mind you, just that i want them. i mean, i’ve already got bittersweetheart that’s supposed to be thoughtful and reflective and it’s mostly ignored. because i’m not so good with the follow-through all the time.
but today i am raging. RAGING. angry, anger a burning boulder lodged in the middle of me. it hurts my face to smile. i want to lash out and hurt people today. i want to scream and yell. i want, i want, i want. i want to cuss and get drunk. i want to go to sleep and wake up and be better tomorrow. i want to pinch people. the kind of pinches that hurt for like five minutes after you stop pinching.
today my eyes squirt poison and i have to be oddly quiet lest i say something i can’t take back when i’m back to my old self. and really, though i am angry, i don’t want to hurt anyone. i just want to be mean, in my head.