i’m wasting my life — in 180 second increments.

i tell myself that i can stop whenever i want. i try to limit how many times i visit. i tell myself that tomorrow i won’t play at all. i set goals for myelf, thinking that once i attain them, the game will lose its luster. it doesn’t. i just set new goals.

i’ve even made up lingo. i want to know what the secrets are of those who have made it to the highest ranks on the leader board.

i claim that the ultimate goal is making that leader board. once my name is firmly ensconced there, then i can quit. i can go out at the top of my game. until then, the 180 second intervals of my life will continue to slip by.