your side of the bed

sometimes when i am extra lonely, i will line up all the spare pillows on your side of the bed and pretend there’s someone there.

i call it your side of the bed, even though there is no one to claim it. it’s just not my side of bed. usually i sleep on my side of the bed, leaving your side empty waiting to be claimed.

so when i am extra lonely and have lined up the pillows just so, i will scootch backwards until i can feel the pillows. and then as i drift off to sleep i can pretend it’s someone there. someone who wants to claim your side of the bed.

when i am extra, extra lonely and my tossing and turning has shooed all the pillows away, i will curl up on your side of the bed. i will curl up there as small and tight as i can and pretend you are away on a trip or you had to go into work early.

i will lie there on your side of the bed and pretend that i am comforted by your smell, by the warmth that you left behind. i will fall asleep pretending there is someone who will return, eventually, to claim your side of bed.

it’s just pretend. there really is no harm in it. i know that side of the bed is mine, all the sides are mine. it’s my bed.

but sometimes i like to pretend.

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7 Comments

  1. UH 16.Jul.02 at 12:23 am

    jodi, that’s sweet. I have a tear in my eye. Honestly.

  2. Josh 16.Jul.02 at 12:45 pm

    You shouldnt have to use pillows. If I weren’t taken, I would stand in for the pillows. Sounds like a nice place to be.

  3. alie 16.Jul.02 at 5:24 pm

    that’s why I have one of those big body pillows. they come quite in handy for such nights.

  4. Mark 17.Jul.02 at 1:16 am

    too cool…too painful…very good.

  5. Wes 17.Jul.02 at 5:35 am

    ya know what, I do the same thing. they don’t quite have the heat output one would desire, do they?

  6. firebird 05.May.03 at 8:54 pm

    dat was sweet, i do the same thing… 🙂