it’s probably not a good idea to be reading the bell jar whilst experiencing one of the worst cases of PMS since i was about 15. the hormonal imbalance is nutso. i’ve nearly burst into tears at work about four times in the past two days. i know it’s hormonal. i can feel the hormonalness of it.

well shitty things have happened at work, but nothing so shitty as to make me want to cry at my desk. just the average shitty stuff that i can usually brush off with some humor.

but this isn’t your normal, average PMS. this is superduperPMS.

so that’s why it’s not such a good idea to be reading “the bell jar”. see, i’ve decided i’m clinically depressed and losing my mind. i’ve spent the entire night trying to recreated esther’s apathy. i’ve been succeeding quite marvelously. i can’t even seem to focus on what it is that’s making me so unhappy this week. apathy thy name is jodi.

this cannot be healthy.