so andrea is going on hiatus. i am a bit saddened. i love reading smackeral. but i am also impressed with such self-discipline. i don’t think i could give up iwilldare.com. not even for a week or two. i am a hopeless junkie.

why?

often times i wonder why i do this. why i put a goodly portion of my life on display here. because i can seems like the quickest and easiest answer.

because i want to, is even better. iwilldare.com exists for purely selfish reasons. it’s my outlet, it’s where i get to say whatever i want without fear of retribution. everything i do, i do it for me. pathetic, huh?

it amazes me that people read iwilldare.com. shocks, stuns and delights me. when i started this venture i was pretty sure there would be two people reading thing. me and orange tim. but still, even with readers, i do it for me. because i like to. because it makes me happy.

when i don’t get a chance to write. when i keep everything bottled up inside i get cranky. repressed feelings and thoughts make my bellyache. i can feel the tension build throughout the day when i haven’t vented verbally. this is a wonderful stress release.

plus, it’s opened up other venues for me. i’ve got backwash and bittersweetheart plus a myriad of other writing projects brewing. hell, i am pretty sure it was iwilldare.com that landed me my swank job as propaganda girl.

woo!

so, why do i do it? because i am a selfish, egotisitical sweet thang who likes to see her words some place other than her own notebooks. that’s why.