ok. i’m done. the resume is printed, the cover letter signed, the clips chosen. i will hand this information over and the rest is in the hands of the fates, right? if it’s meant to be, it will happen. but i am worried. i want this job. i want this job more than any job i’ve wanted since college. i am anxious and scared. i think my desire is jinxing everything. why can’t i be nonchalant?