so i layed in the bed and closed my eyes and it was beautiful. i was trapped in this weird awake/dream place where i thought of 348 things to write about in these last remaining hours and then the alarm made this obnoxious noise and i couldn’t find my glasses and i forgot everything. everything! it is all forgotten.

so, i will quote REM songs to the adorable jake and drink some more water– because the diet coke, it is giving me a tummy ache.

i not about to give thanks or apologize, i could breathe, holding me down, hand on my face, pushing me around. . . yes, i am listening to pearl jam, i am 21 or 22 again, i can’t remember anymore.