editors note 2:39 p.m. clearly i am a hysterical ninny. don’t mind me carry on as usual. . . doot do do. . .
the outlaw’s site is down again. i can only guess that it’s been hacked. i am crushed. i don’t know what’s going on and he won’t/can’t answer my emails.
i am sick to my stomach. why would someone do something like this? the last time someone did it they claimed it was for me, that’s just sick and wrong.
i feel like vomitting and crying, sadly i am at work and cannot do either.
why? i just don’t get it. what’s the point of doing this to him? what is it that you want from me?
what makes me want to cry the hardest is that because of this i will either have to give up the outlaw or iwilldare.com both of which break my heart right in two.
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Uh. that site is up to me. Try and calm down a bit. Your starting to worry me. 😉
I just recently stumbled onto these weblog self expression extravaganza forums. With some tips and suggestions from some kind, talented, and experienced ones as yourselves, perhaps I too can have a shrine! Self-centered doesn’t have to include ill-temperedness, lack of caring, or weak principles. Just because I believe the universe revolves around me…doesn’t automatically imply I don’t love and cherish you, my peers. (or that I can spell) I mostly like what I read in these journals and what I don’t like….to bad for me! I choose for now to look closer.
Peace and hope you feel better.
jodikins, if you’d like to avoid near-hysteria over a possibly-downed web site in the future, put Visual Route in your bookmark file. You go there, type in the name of the site to which you’re attepting to connect, and it runs a ping/traceroute graph for you from its server in Dulles, VA, which comes out looking like this picture, only bigger and more readable (Curse you, Photoisland!!)
Jodi… Hon, sit down and re-read what you just typed in your post.
#1. If the site was down, wouldn’t a server error be more likely to blame than an attack?
#2) If someone else was misguided enough to carry out an attack in your name, you wouldn’t be any more to blame than Jodi Foster was when Hinkley went whacko.
#3) All this emotion for this event is spilling over from something else, it has to be. Take tomorrow off. Drink some tea. Read a book. Sleep. Do anything you want, just try to find out and deal with where this emotional outpouring is coming from.
it’s hormonal, i’m nearly sure. since i’m going through menopause (i’ve decided) my period comes whenever it feels like, this would also explain why i’ve been masturbating like a fiend all week.
“…this would also explain why i’ve been masturbating like a fiend all week.”
Do tell.
In great detail.
With photos or video if available, please.
Yes, please tell! It may help (you) to talk about it (and definitely us to hear it!). Don’t despair! This too, shall pass.
Well, I was going to suggest that you have to learn to love yourself, but seeing as how it sounds like you’ve been loving yourself like a caged monkey, I can assume THAT base is covered!
And stop it; You’re NOT going through menopause! Only the 5% of the female population, have truly uber-rythmic cycles. It’s OK to have a cycle that goes to fast, or backfires now and then. You could also have cycle that is really cranky and tempermental that takes a few good kicks to get going… Sorry, that was a Harley… Kicks to get YOUR cycle going is just wrong…