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Chilling effect

Jodi Chromey — Mon, 02 May 2011 18:34:40 +0000

Do you remember in those early post-9/11 days when you were considered unpatriotic and a bad American for criticizing anything George W. Bush and his administration did?

It feels like that today.

If you don’t display relief in drunken revelry and jokes about violence you are an unpatriotic bad American. Expressing discomfort or even being unsure about how you feel with the joyous outpouring turns you into some sort of 9/11-apologist who loves terrorism.

Today’s one of those days where voicing dissent is unacceptable, and that sucks.

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Sometimes the fates give you exactly what you need

Jodi Chromey — Wed, 08 Aug 2007 02:05:08 +0000

For the past week or so someone has been doing some in-depth research here on iwilldare.com about the TTHM. I don’t know who it is. It’s been fascinating watching the mystery searcher plunder through seven years of archives.

The mystery searcher is not the legendary TTHM. I asked him. This has, of course made the mystery all that much more tantalizing.

While following the search today I ran into long unread posts like this one about the first e-mail the TTHM ever sent me. Let me tell you, this was exactly not the thing I needed today.

I’ve had a bad day. It was one of those days that decimated me. I was up early to make an 8 a.m. meeting that decided not to start until 8:15 and it just got worse from there. I had shitty meeting after shitty meeting, and when I wasn’t in a meeting I was staring hard at my computer screen willing myself not to cry.

Stress does strange things to us. All of this is exacerbated by the fact that I never, ever sleep. Ever.

The day was so bad that I asked Sister #2 who is in the midst of a two-week vacation in Michigan for help. If you know me, you know that I’d rather eat rusty nails while listening to Barefucking Naked Ladies with Gwen Stefani then ask for help.

I checked the mail before I rolled into Supergenius HQ after a 10.5 hour work day only to find a mystery Amazon package. I wrote it off at first, assuming it was the book I ordered for this fall’s Advanced Fiction class.

But it wasn’t. It was a book from the very same TTHM I’ve been talking about with a note that said, “Happy Anniversary Darling.”

Upon seeing that note, I lost it. I sat in Ruby bawling like a baby. It was exactly the thing I needed today.

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The summer of my discontent

Jodi Chromey — Fri, 27 Jul 2007 15:03:02 +0000

It seems that the only thing I can do lately is listen to Prince, Otis Redding, Stevie Wonder, or The Replacements’ “Tim” on repeat. That’s all I am capable of. I can’t read, I certainly can’t write, I can’t concentrate, and about the only thing I can do while listening to the music is howl in dissatisfaction at the injustice of the world and stare at the phone that refuses to ring.

Yesterday I listened to “Tim” all the way through five (ack!) times in a row in an attempt to cheer myself up. It didn’t exactly work. However, as I told Peabo it did prevent me from gnawing on the bones of my enemies. We did not discuss the fact that I have no enemies, really and that I was just being a big baby.

In case you didn’t notice, it’s the summer of our motherfucking discontent. The number of things that could be my problems are so vast and numerous that I could not even being to enumerate them all.

I’ve fallen into that zone where nothing could make me happy. Nothing at all. I can’t even think of anything that would make me happy. I don’t want to do anything fun, I don’t want to sit at home and veg, I don’t want to buy anything or sell anything or process anything or buy anything sold and processed or sell anything bought and processed or process anything bought and sold.

It seems the only thing that I really want to do is sit and bitch endlessly about my state of discontent and listen to the best Prince song ever (oh yes, I am staking this claim) “I Could Never Take the Place of Your Man” over and over and over and over again.

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