Sounds like a lot of frustration and helplessness is mixed in there. Have you a specific target for your anger?

Work is probably helping because it is something you _can_ do which is usually quite a relief when you’re stuck in a situation where mostly you can only wait…americans in particular are really bad at situations where the only thing you can do is wait.

If you are in touch with your family at the hospital, and ready to go if needed, then you have done what you can, and are prepared to extend yourself as needed.

Take care of yourself. Eat a decent lunch, make sure you take your breaks.

Remember, you _do_ have people who think kindly of you….